a day before

location: kathrin birthday. role model of nobel intent
environment: the eve of my leave. absent is a state of mind not simply a locationary descirber.
accepting my obsession with past, if only i came from a comfortable family....uh wait i did, yet i am still hungury for more. blessed with tap water ( mereji?) health care and the welfare state. free to decide, design and procrastinate. survival was never a nesicessity the lesiure of life puts a certain spin on my own raison d'etre. i wonder so well that my throat gets partched with out even uttering a single word. longing for a silent- still place where i wont be tempted away from the deep well of myself. i plunge and swirl. admist the questions i remain genuine in my shadows and strenghts